I've made my mistakes

I've made my mistakes,caused my troubles
why i have done there things
i haven't a clue,yet i know i pay
i have driven haterd into this world
to which you offered peace and safety
yet i wanted chaos and confusion
for only a moments time
weary and hastily i got these things
whit a whirl wind of consequences
i did not mean for things to end this way
for them to be in such an up roar
my heart pleads with you
cco not forgive me but understand i am lost
in a world i myself created
to weald my fantasies reality
though i know they are not
i have trapped myself within them
forgive me not for the heartache
forgive me not for the troubles i've caused
but i know i apologize

My heart

My heart still jumps when i hear you name
These legs give in when i see your face.
My eyes meet yours and i oose control.
The scent on your skin is beautiful.

The way you stare so deep at me;
I have to admit i forgot how to breathe.
it's kind of silly and i feel like a child
i love the way your eyes dent when you smile

i miss your hands that held me close
a river of thoughts in my head that flows
and it feels kind of selffish to wish you were mine
i gave you it all, and then you changed your mind

i could hate you for that but i dont
by now its a memory ive lost and still want
i say i dont care that it doesnt matter
but thats not the truth, its a goal im still after

and if i had never left you at all
i have a feeling i'd still be your doll
maybe im wrong and it'd be like you said
i'd still be dreaming and you could care less

its so hard to see you with anyone else
shes not as good to you as myself.
honey i miss you and i need you that much.
its been more then a year and youre still what i want